My dad

So to make matters more complex around here...my dad had a heart attack two weeks ago. He is doing a bit better but he is still not himself. He can not walk very far without having to stop and rest for a long time. I always knew he would have one( his family history includes nothing but heart issues)but I still didn't expect it.It still hit me hard. I think alot about what life would be like without him around. Even though we have not always had the best relationship, I love him dearly. My kids love him dearly. It is scary. So this is where I am again...trying to make sense and enjoy life again...knowing that it is far to short not to enjoy.